G'day everyone!
We got to the flat for dinner and I again was on my knees. We
had some members that have some problems with the church. They don't
quite know why some things are the way they are. They do what they are
supposed to because they know they will be blessed but it's only half
hearted because they don't like this or that. I'm being vague for
specific reasons. I just want everyone to know that the Lord doesn't do
things just because it's going to bless one group of people or anything
like that. He gives everyone the same commandments to bless everyone
who willingly obeys them. It seemed like Heavenly Father was trying to
get me to learn something this week. I got the picture loud and clear.
I've felt really low because of many things. I've studied faith and
repentance more than I thought ever possible. I've tried everything in
my power to make things happen and for some reason they just weren't
working. At Zone Meeting on Friday we talked about our purpose as
missionaries. The whole meeting was like a spiritual slap in the face.
I can't put it all to words because much of it was just things that I
needed to hear.
I've felt kinda down because I haven't seen fruit from
our investigators and our work with them. We've actually dropped nearly
everyone that we had to teach in the last few weeks. We made a focus
the other week to build the members and less-actives. We thought, "If
we can help strengthen them then they will help strengthen us and our
efforts." For the most part the last few weeks have brought success on
that front. I was just continually praying that our leaders would see
it that way as well.
While we were driving the other day we were
listening to a General Conference talk and the speaker said, "Where
there is faith there comes a trial of that faith. That trial will bring
forth increased faith." I needed to hear that too. Heavenly Father
will always find ways to help us and usually rebuke us in one way or
another. That increase of faith came yesterday at church. On Saturday
we went and visited the Fiti family. We found out that they didn't
have rugby games on Sunday and would be able to come with us to church.
We went home and started to make phone calls. We found fellowship for
the older brother from the Driessen boys. We called the Primary
president to tell her that she would have 3 extra kids in primary this
week and found out that her daughter is Kaya's age! We texted Bishop
and Brother Day and told them that the Fiti family would be coming. We
did everything we could think of to make this family be welcomed and to
feel at home. Sunday came and church started. No sign of the Fiti's. I
was gutted. So much planning. So many prepared people to help. It was
a hard sacrament meeting to sit through. I said a lot of prayers and
did a lot of soul searching. At the end of sacrament Sister Tomaki
stood up and turned around to see if they had snuck in without us
knowing. Low and behold they were there! They had found people they
know, the fellowship took their roles, and they all stayed for all 3
hours. Later Sister Tomaki during companionship study read this to me,
"Your success as a missionary is measured primarily by your commitment
to
find, teach, baptize, and confirm people and to help them become
faithful members of the Church who enjoy the presence of the Holy
Ghost. She said, "I just knew they would come. I didn't get
discouraged. The Spirit knew that we had done our part." Another
spiritual slap to the face. I definitely learned the teaching of
turning the other cheek this week. Spiritual slap after slap. I
learned what I needed to. Now I just need to act and apply what I've
learned.
After church we joined Ward Council Meeting. Bishop took the
time after we had given our reports to say, "Missionaries, I just want
you to know how grateful I am for all of your hard work. We don't have a
lot of baptisms coming up but the amount of returning members that I've
seen the last two weeks makes me incredibly happy and grateful for your
efforts." I could have cried. Bishop couldn't have said anything else
that could have helped me more. It was another prayer answered.
Heavenly Father is always mindful of us. I'm so grateful for that.
Keep faith in every footstep. Every time we go through the wilderness
of life it is just preparing us to reach the promise land. I have a
strong testimony of that. If you are going through a trial know that it
is just testing the faith that you have. The faith is there, it's
being tested, and it will be strengthened as long as we keep close to
Him. This is the scripture that carried me through the rain this week
and I hope it can help someone else. James 1:2-4 "My brethren, count it
all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; 3: Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. 4: But let patience have her
perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing."
I
love you all and hope you have a great full first week of summer!
Book of Mormon Week 2!
17:45
Lamen and Lemuel give us a good example that you can have knowledge
without having faith. Faith is necessary to be converted.
18:16 Do we complain after our trails?
21:14-16 God hath not forgotten thee
2 Nephi
Happy Sisters.
CTR rings!
Sunset :)